Dari
semalam sampai pagi tadi rasanya hatiku gelisah dan kuatir akan banyak hal.
Namun tadi saat misa rasanya segala gelisah dan kuatir itu lenyap… Begitu damai
hati ini selama misa tadi.
Di
awal saat “Malam Kudus” dinyanyikan, air mataku mulai mengalir, terutama saat
syair “hanya dua berjaga terus, ayah bunda mesra dan kudus, anak tidur tenang…
anak tidur tenang.”
Entah
mengapa… Mungkin Tuhan tau kegelisahan hatiku? Menyapaku melalui lagu tadi?
So,
it’s gonna be okay, right Lord? You will always guide me, protect me, lead me
in the way You want me to go… especially in the new year ahead… as always,
because You are faithful and will never abandon me… It’s me, the one who like
to run away from You, following my ego, my self-interest, disordered affection…
Forgive
me, dear Lord, for all my sins… Help me to be a better person You want me to
be… as perfect, as generous, as forgiving as our Father… It’s not an easy thing
for me to do, but in You Lord, nothing is imposible! I have to discipline
myself and willingly let you mold me in Your loving hands…
BSD City, 24 Desember 2014
BSD City, 24 Desember 2014
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